Our pastor John Suciu talks a lot about perseverance of faith. When life gets hard, when God seems far away, when evil seems to triumph we pick up ourselves up and shake the dust off and get moving towards God. Pastor John would say - "Giddyup" These past couple of weeks I have been persevering through some low weight loss numbers.
Last week I had a disappointing loss of just one pound so I was expecting a fairly large number this week. Not so, just a 1.6 loss. This week wasn't as crushing as the week before because on the way in to Brotherhood my mind wandered on where I was at right at that moment and how far I've come in the last 8 weeks.
My jeans are no longer uncomfortable, I have actually moved down a size. I am in the 190's. I have not been that weight in 10 years. I am only 20 pounds away from the weight when I married Ron. I have been heavy all my life. I graduated high school at 170 pounds, hit 230 in my twenties, slowly through other diets I hit 160 and then over the past 15 years I gained over 50 pounds. 160 was the thinnest I had been as an adult. I remember feeling so good about myself. I was confident for the first time in my life. I wasn't trying to blend into the background. I wasn't worried about what people thought about my weight. I was just me. I want this again...so bad.
So even though the loss wasn't what I was expecting, I am rejoicing in my progress. I feel stronger, my body moves differently. I can run. I can push sleds, I can do 100 flights of stairs. My clothes fit right and some even are too baggy. I went to Marengo Caves with my daughter's 5th grade class and I wasn't winded while I walked or felt that there was no way I could squeeze through the caves. Every week I feel more empowered. I feel sore, but it's a good kind of sore. It's a "I worked really hard and pushed through my comfort zone" sore. On Saturday I jogged 4 miles...straight for the first time ever.
So picking myself up, shaking the dust off and moving forward! Giddyup!
You are doing great Tina! Frequently, I saw you walk very fast in front of me. That's an encouragement for me to hang there and push myself up for more. Also, your 10 K run encouraged me to do my first time ever 5K run. You (we) will make it. Keep up your good work!
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you!! So proud of your mindset! Recognizing all the things you have grown in and accomplished and letting that fuel you forward and not letting low numbers pull you down!!
ReplyDeleteJogging 4 miles without stopping is huge!!!
I know what you mean about feeling proud about being sore, its so cool!
And I am so glad you did the cave trip, knowing how different it would have been for you before!