This morning I will admit I was VERY discouraged. I was worn out and tired and completely drained and by the time we got to our 1 minute wall sit I was already done. 30 seconds into it and I had to get up, Rick told me to get back down and put my arms out. Thias was encouraging me telling me I could do it, I didn't want to, it hurt and I didn't want to "feel the burn" anymore. I got back down finished the last 15 seconds and walked away with tears in my eyes, a couple of them having escaped and running down my face. I felt defeated. I took a shower and questioned if I could do this? I was hearing all the voices and encouragement in my head I've previously mentioned in other blogs, the you can do it's and way to go's from the trainers, Rose, Dick, Frank and many others but I was blocking them out. I didn't want to hear them, they were making me mad.
I pouted my way back to my locker only to remember I brought in a pair of black pants I haven't been able to wear in years, I brought an extra pair because I was sure they wouldn't fit but hey, why not try them on and see. I was sure they were going to bring me more disappointment. I went into the changing room, put one leg in, the other leg and... here we go... slid them on buttoned and zipped up already and with ease. What??? I didn't even have to unbutton them! I finished getting dressed and with a glow, a smile and a renewed sense of "Of course you can do this, you big baby!" I walked up to Rose and told her about my pants. She gave me a big hug and asked me if I waited too long to try them on because they looked a little big. I DID!! I did wait a little too long to try them on and they were, they were TOO BIG!!
I know this was God's plan, this was His way of encouraging me and letting me know that this is what I should be doing and even though I question Him every step of the way, He never ceases to be there! We all know God is great but today when I was questioning what was I doing, He made it perfectly clear that once again, He knows way better than I do. A lesson in humility and trust as well as a victory and celebration is how my day went. How was yours?
Nicholle, thank you so much for sharing how you were feeling today. I am so glad you decided to bring that pair of pants in today, and try them on. I am so happy for you that you got to see the results of all your hard work so far. Yes, as you stated, you CAN do this. You are doing great!! I am rejoicing with you over your victory!!
ReplyDeleteGreat Job! I also couldn't do the wall sits, my legs gave out at about 35 seconds and Rick told me to get up and keep on doing it. :) Right there with you... aren't your legs burning? Mine are still a little ouchy! Way to stay with it!
ReplyDeleteWow! That is the most fabulous surprise ever! I've tried on a few things and they do feel looser, ,but nothing as dramatic as your tale. I am so happy for you.
ReplyDeleteYou CAN do it!!!
ReplyDeleteI did not realize you were having a rough morning!
ReplyDeleteI have cried at least 2 different times in smallest winner workouts, if that helps...and some contestants in the past have cried quite a number of times...its hard! And intense physical exercise can be a release to our emotions, sometimes we just lose it and we don't even know why...sometimes big macho , never crying, men, bawl their eyes out running a marathon....
What you are doing is hard! And worth it! You are worth it!
I am so glad you had a cool, happy, milestone to celebrate to turn things around yesterday morning!
Throughout the program, I hit Goodwill and clearance racks often, get a few things that fit to get by until I need a new size! That way, I didn't spend much, and could see my progress!
Nicole one thing to remember feeling it easy to complete the task will not have much of a result on you, but when you are doing something that your body doesn't like and tries to convince you that you can't do it, and yet you do it you have won a victory. Yes it hurts, but you overcame the pain and did it. Rick, Tina, and E.J. can read eyes. I have seen them tell some people to stand up while others, like you, they tell to get back down. They can tell from the eyes if you can do it or if you really are at the breaking point. Telling you to get back down is their love for you to help you overcome an obstacle so you can gain another victory. You are strong and you can and will do more than your body thinks you can do. I am just so thankful for a loving God who prepare for you the special encouragement you needed that morning so you wouldn't give up but instead keep going forward.
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