That's me in those pictures.

I always find it humorous to look at the pictures of the days workout/activity and see that I look like I am seriously dying in every single one. I don't remember feeling that way, I remember feeling strong and confident that I am getting better and better with each workout and then I look at the pictures and think "that's not what I was doing." My body feels like it is stretching as far as everyone else's and I feel like I'm doing the exercises how they should be done and that I look like an athlete, just how I see everyone else looking, (Nope, I'm not comparing myself. ;-) LOL!) then I pull up the pictures and think "who is that girl?" "she's not doing that right" "her face is SO red" "that pose is way off" "why is her leg like that"... and then I realize that girl is me. Now all of you are thinking encouraging thoughts you could tell me at this point (because you are all so amazing) but I'm not writing this because I'm getting down on myself, I'm writing this to remind myself NOT to be down on myself.


So what if  I don't look like an amazing athlete in the pictures, my face is always bright red and my mouth is usually open because I'm trying to catch my breath. I have absolutely 0 photos of me like this prior to this program because I was always sitting on the couch watching TV or sitting in a chair watching my kids be active or sitting around talking... sitting is the theme of my prior life. My life now is pictures of me with my mouth open because I'm pushing myself to the limit and having to catch my breath, my bright red face because I've worked really hard and my awkward poses because although my body isn't quite where it can do them how they should be done, it's doing them how it can and that's more than I could say 9 weeks ago. I am going to treasure those awful awkward amusing photos everyday of my life because they show me fighting, fighting to get to where I want to be and fighting for my life. Thank you Becky, Dick and Rose for the memories and being able to track my progress and strength through photos. :)